Dear friends, its been a long long journey down the road this year, life changing, nerve wrecking, mind boggling, heartbreaking and happiness

This year has almost been the "worst luck" year ever after my review.

 

Lots of things happened, some moments to be cherished for eternity:

 

1) I got my promotion this year :-) after working my @$$ off like about 3 years on full time basis

 

2) I graduated in my struggle for a diploma- paperworks paperwork and more paperworks. Well in the plans are even more paperworks hehe..

 

3) Distance.. always something I knew would be a challenge. Well at least this one can be fixed..

 

4) got fatter even tho I joined a gym, not too sure if this is a good sign of being happy or not lol

 

5) Me and J went for lots of vacation together esp to redang with some friends(Altho most of us fell ill during the end part of the trip haha!) and also family..

 

6) My car finally got into an accident, it wasn't my fault anyway. Just some distracted lunatic on the road.

 

7) many other stupido things.. like a flat tyre just recently..car acting up a little, computer acting up a little.. etc..

 

not only were our individual lives challenged, but even others, people around the world were affected by typhoons, floods, earthquakes in china.. which

killed so many people, politics, economic downturn, rising fuel prices.. and the list goes on my friend

 

apart from that, 

earlier in 2008, is a year that saddens me, losing someone I love very much,

Knowing that she's gone forever now was very sad indeed and seeing her being cremated made things even worse..

 

She was a very wise person. Smart, and at the age of 78 even tho you could sense her memory slowly fading away she still had a composed look.

Someone who looked after me since I was still a baby, who thought me right from wrong (although I always fought back at her), someone who often lends a shoulder to cry on, She cooked delicious food for me-especially the murru curry, She is my only grandmother I ever got to know, and not just any someone.

 

The news came to as a shock to me that night, I still remember it very clearly that my dad called and said a few short words "hey umm... grandma passed away" (you see even my dad was lost for words, he normally isn't like that) At that very moment I suddenly felt a huge stroke of lightning hit my heart. The future was bleak all of a sudden. Felt blind..I cried my heart out that night.

 

 

 

After grandma left us for a better place, I was totally changed. You see, I never knew how to tell her I loved her. Although we shared a common thoughts so I presumed she knew I love her and the thought just blew by each and every time.

 

Without the support of my love one, I don't think I would have ever made it this far. She gave me strength and encouraged me to live life.

I'll be strong because this life is not over till its over.. I'll be strong as long as I know I have the love and support of my other half.

 

I'll be strong is a promise I made, which is etched deeply in my heart with kindness, sincerety, love, compassion, happiness, honesty, respect, care & faith by the people who mean the most to me. The fire in my heart is burning bright and nothing can put out the raging fire of my heart. I'm not prepared or neither am I going to lose anyone else. I will not let 2008 ruin my life.. neither will I let it ruin yours. 2008 is almost over anyway...

 

Take care and have a safe 2008!

 

Thank god it's almost over soldiers.. we fought a good fight. There's a saying that goes

"It is not the one who started a war that wins, but the one who managed to prevent the war that wins" so my message here today for all you folks thinking of giving up is to BE STRONG! have faith and it will all be a breeze soon! and last but definitely not least. Grandma I love you!