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17.03.2009 17th March 2008 (a tribute)Dear friends, yes you did infact read it correctly. There is nothing wrong with your eyes. It is not a mistake nor did I do a typo. 17th March 2008 I remember exactly 1 year ago like it was yesterday, 12:05am. And I was in a happy mood, contempt and not a worry in my mind that night, all snuggled up in bed in the arms of angels till a call from my dad brought news of something I would have never expect. Something that never would have crossed my mind at that time. News that would make my heart stop. A while after streams of tears flowed like the Amazon River. Thus the date marks a black spot in all our hearts.. Happy Thoughts. I saw you the other day when we stopped over after our family vacation.. 2 days before you left for that long journey, you were smiling and looked so happy, with a wonderful gleam in your eyes. Knowing that your children, grandchildren and everyone in the family was doing okay. Perhaps that is why you decided to leave this world with a peaceful heart. After the news was delivered to me by my dad, I remember argue-ing with him.. “how could this be pa?.. we saw her a few days ago.. and she was just fine..” still dazed from the news and in denial… About you. The trademark kisses of good luck on our foreheads will always be there forever. I’ll always remember the lovely Christmases we have over at your place, where you would cutely put lil’ red packets under the tree for all of your lil’ grandchildren and you big grandchild here :) I always remember when I was tiny, how you took care of me and how you tolerated all my nuisance and mischiefs. How you would chase me around the house trying to get the bugger off my finger. How you would cook all my favorite food for lunch. How you would punish me when I got out of hand. Taking the blame for the stuff I broke. We were the bestest buddies =) Lingers. I remember dropping by alone one breezy evening by surprise and found that nobody was at home, puzzled.. but I always did not need to look far to find you being pushed by Akak on the wheelchair in the colorful playground opposite the house. Still smiling, still with the brave face on. Peacefully sitting and watching the day go by, seeing kids running about and hearing birds happily chirping away. When you saw me your smile became brighter.. and your eyes became wider :-) guess you were happy to see me huh? :p and plus after hinting you about a girl I liked for the first time, you became more interested to know further and started asking all sorts of questions and giving all sorts of advice =) hehe.. so there we were talking in the playground, you were on your wheelchair, me on the playground bench and Akak looking clueless :p Just like good ol’ times.. 2 best buddies just hanging out.. In my mind. The day finally came, where there was no more smiles.. no more laughter.. no more birds chirping.. only your lifeless body in the casket, sadness, tears and sorrow filled the air. You still looking calm and composed. a lot of people came to visit you that day.. Your dearest children came from all over the world to pay their respects, your soul must have been really happy that day :-) It was a tough day for me battling out my emotions to see my bestest buddy on earth, lying motionless in your comfy bed of roses. I guess all of us in the family was fighting a tough battle but you faught the toughest battle and finally the battle is over. You won and now you flying high in the skies above in a way much better place :-) One day, I shall join you too.. and we will have the good ol’ times talk soon again ya Even though things are much different now(or perhaps unexpected) since the day you left. I guess you would understand what happened along the way, being all the way up there in heaven. The sweet memories of you will always be kept sacred in my heart. I have in my mind the most valueble treasure on earth to have known a strong/brave/courageous bestest buddy/teacher/motivator/advisor/inspirationer/mother and importantly dearest grandmother on earth!
Dear friends, my aunt managed to compose a book of all my Grandmothers delicious recipes especially my favorites hehe, The book is called “An Indian in Exile” It’s been on Amazon.co.uk for quite a while and selling pretty well so I heard.. If you are interested and you’re having trouble looking for it.. as always, you can click on the blue yonder below.. :-) plus the book has real beautiful drawings contributed by all of her dearest grandchildren's from all around the world, not to mention my ugly one which is somwhere in the book titled “obscure” lol :p hehe.. this picture was drawn by one of my cousin’s pretty nice right? hehe Dearest friends, also let us say a prayer for my beloved grandmother who was called back home to the arms of God on the 17th of March 2009 at the age of 84. approximately at 12:05am To the person who raised me to who I am today. I love you very much and I miss you so much more than you could ever know! :-) Yes…. grandma….. I can still hear you telling me to lose weight :p and I can still feel the pokes you do to my tummy hehe.. hints you say?
12:05am – The happy thoughts about you still lingers in my mind 10.03.2009 Are you truly happy?
I took another quiz just recently, here is the blue yonder.. :p (Link) and I scored Unhappy
You are missing many things in life that will make you happy but you have some. it is best to enjoy the good things while they last! and always keep trying for the other things you want! you are most likely feeling a bit lonely and need to talk out your problems!
09.03.2009 latika~~Personality Test ... pffttt.. (click on the link to take you to the blue yonder) :p
oh almost forgot, Jeffro or Voxy if you happen to stumble here reading this by coincidence, don't say I didn't tell you so.. haha!
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Life is a rollercoaster! it's spins you up and down and all around..
and then the dark clouds seem like they were drifting farther away by the winds from the south..
 and the child was happy because that means he can see his toy plane soar through the skies again..
But it does leave a question, when will those dark clouds come back
and deprive him the joy of life..
~to get back on the rollercoaster or to miss the train? a question only the universe holds the answer..~ 07.03.2009 in a state of "e"I hope you guys are well and safely recuperating from the previous post hehe
 sorry about that..anyway, taking a trip down good ol' memory lane, I've been listening to some songs which brought back some happy thoughts of the "younger" days, I don't know if you guys heard of these underground local-now-unknown-status bands before like Juliet the Orange, LO, Nice Stupid Playground, Poetic Ammo, Dragon Red, Love me Butch, Piranha.. oh well those were the days =)
Well there is a song I really like which was written by Douglas Lim (I think) played by Indecisive.. titled Empty Decorations anything familiar to you guys or does it just sound greek to you? hehe.. It was the theme song used by the popular show called Kopitiam back in 1997, a show which brought a change of scenery to all those local un-intelligent stereo-typed stuff on the air :p I used to enjoy the show back then when there wasn't really much internet or astro for that matter.
So here I am, just sharing a song which describes a lil bit of me at the moment with you nice people on the internet =)
If you're wondering how the song goes, click on that lil' play button seen on the youtube link and kindly please ignore the lame video. Its not the original video which has probably already become extinct along with the underground local-now-unknown-status bands.
I wake in the dawn to showers of light
Moments of emptiness surround Floating away with auras of hope But reality brings me.. to the ground What can i do ? What can i say ? I need a place to hide away Just for a while, just for a smile Just for the life i used to know Where every song Was filled with words of love and not of anger Where did they go ? Why did they leave me far behind ? Cause i don't wanna be alone (Oh oh..) Living life all on my own (Oh oh..) I don't wanna live my life in isolation Filled with empty decorations Cause i wanna be with people that i know Who will do the things i do (Oh oh..) Making all my dreams come true I don't recognise the shadows on my door Although i've seen them all before Because the only thing i really want is to be with you... I look at the sky, it looks back at me I can't hear the silent melodies I know that i'm here yet i am lost Blown in confusion by the breeze Hiding my face, crying alone I need to find my way back home Back to the place, the wonderful days Living the life i used to know Where every smile Was born out of a love and of sincerity And every tear of everflowing joy Cause i don't wanna be alone (Oh oh..) Living life all on my own (Oh oh..) I don't wanna live my life in isolation Filled with empty decorations Cause i wanna be with people that i know Who will do the things i do (Oh oh..) Making all my dreams come true I don't recognise the shadows on my door Although i've seen them all before Because the only thing i really want is to be with you... On another note, I feel that a special very big thank you is necessary to Popo for sending pictures of a place where I first went to school.
 THANK YOU POPO!!A state which I was born in and a town where I practically grew up in til I was about 9 (a tad bit taller to see the world at an elevated perspective of life)
Awesome!!
 The sign-age
I'm amazed that not much has change since 20 odd years back! wow.. :) the skies are still blue, the trees are still green (now I wouldn't have expected it to be any different) :)
these pictures make me smile and tear at the same time. I think I'm normal! hehe
Well that about wraps up the post for today. Oh look at the time! I've got to run.. Catch ya later mates!
~I need a place to hide away~just for awhile~just for a smile~just for the life I used to know~ 06.03.2009 the gods have already planned itA R Rahman ft. Suzzanne - Dreams On Fire Boys & Girls, Sometimes twist and turns of life can be filled with emotions. Some things can never be changed. That perhaps and my set of dirty sweat shirts :P hehe I was just kidding on the latter. Anyhow, I’m keeping faith nevertheless. Today I’m planning to share you a story.. a story about the gods above and a tale of folk people who listened to everything their god had to say :-) sounds familiar? perhaps.. It begins like this, one day in a far far away land … :P ok well maybe not so far away probably nearer than far away. There were some people who took word for word on what their gods say. So anyhow, there was also this young chap.. ok I say chap because he really was a nice chap =) seriously! SO anyway, the people somehow got to know that the chaps future was going to be bright as the shining sun. Perhaps they were just jealous and they tried to change the chaps fate. I don’t know why. But nevertheless, If the gods really are gods then this chap really has nothing to worry about and he is indeed going to have a bright future no matter what those mean folks do to try to change it. Like the saying goes, If its written then it shall be done ;-) so remember kids don’t try to fight a flare with the fires from the burning sun.. ok this is probably the most crappy post of the year on my blog! anyhow I am rather tired.. both physically, emotionally and spiritually (I have to stop using that). I’m just going to take things easy, relax and enjoy time as it passes by. Absolutely no pressure :) So, my point is if it was meant to be.. it is meant to be. Just wanted to drop this note of before I sign-off for the day! Goodnight kids!
Turn the heat up mate! I own a big shiny limo! Yay… |
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